Visiting and Noodles

I found writing the last couple of posts to be quite harrowing. I began to feel depressed again. I am better again now but it was a scrary little interlude. It was strange at first I thought that I was comming down with the flu and it wasnt until I found myself thinking about suicide that I realise what was wrong with me. In truth I am still quite low, not suicidally low, but not quite right either.

My aunt and uncle visited yesturday. It was a plesant visit, we watched little Lutja play and talked about mum. They were very encouraging about my plans to become a nurse - somthing that made me feel great.

ITs bloody cold. A few days ago I was unable to turn the radiators off and now I am unable to turn them on. I'm ok as I snuggle beneath a duvet and some blankets with a hot water bottle but I do worry about Lutja - she isnt used tot he cold. I keep encouraging her to come under the blankets with me like Buffy and Annie used to but she does not like being covered over.

Tonight I satifised a craving for MSG and noodles from the chinese take away. Yummy.