On Firmer Ground

I'm more stab le today. I'm taking an extra risperidone pill (now up to 4mg) and the statues have stopped talking. I was, for the first time in months, feeling properly, dangerously, suicidal this morning - Its such an horrific feeling.

I visted mum, she is stable. Its hard to tell how she is really doing though because she is suffering from achohol withdrawl (which she refused to even admit to).

Had a lovely, long chat with Ruth - Found out that she is scared of this blog's description of her as a strap-on-weilding sex deamon lol :)